Tender Mercy

My heart is so full of peace and gratitude. First off, I want to say that I am so thankful for such a loving and wonderful Savior.

So two days, as you saw in my post, I was losing hope and suffering because of it. Well yesterday I woke up and began the day with a tender mercy. It was a wonderful, spiritual experience that Richard and I had which helped revitalize my hope and completely strengthen it. We both went through the day with a wonderful peace and reaffirmation of some other spiritual experiences we have had regarding our children. All day I walked around with a smile on my face, and so did Richard, as well as peace from the spirit which lingered from this wonderful tender mercy. It showed me the love that my Savior has for me personally and how he knows what I am going through, and blesses me with strength every once and a while to keep going. This has been one of many very spiritual experiences regarding our children, and it has helped me so much to stay strong through all of this. This tender mercy/spiritual experience has also made me even more determined to stay strong no matter what is ahead, because I know that our special children will come at some point. It could be that we were given this tender mercy because I may have 2 or 3 more miscarriages to endure (or 1- 1 1/2 years left before they come...or more) and these spiritual experiences will help me through the dark times right after a miscarriage (those are the worse times). It is so neat to see the Lord's hand in my life, helping me through the darkness, and picking me up when I have a hard day.

I will finish this later, and include all the thoughts I have had lately. I just wanted to put this down on here before I forgot and get too busy. I am so thankful and so humbled by the fact that Heavenly Father is in charge of my life.