ANOTHER tender mercy

As you have seen in my last post, I have had some conflicting feelings about my degree. I know that I am supposed to go to college, but haven't felt totally confident with my choice. I love the classes and the things I have learned, but it didn't feel right. All of my life I have loved photography and find so much joy while I am taking pictures. However, I never thought that photography would be very practical, and so I never considered it. But the other day I woke up thinking "I need to call ____ to take pictures with her and her cute pregnant belly to help grow my portfolio". And after that, I started thinking about starting a business doing the thing I love so much. As someone battling with miscarriage one of my requirements of a degree is something that will help focus me on something else, rather that it is so labor intensive that I cannot even have a second to think about anything else. It was nice to have something to put my sights on and help me live a goal that is important in my life. But I always thought it had to be something that stressed me out so much, I wouldn't have any energy to think of anything else stressful. It worked pretty well, until I realized I was stressing myself out too much and since I have always been pregnant while being in school that added stress was making the pregnancies extra horrible.
So anyways, after waking up I decided to become a photographer and then it dawned on me. I can try to change my major to photography and it will meet all of my requirements for a college degree. Instead of using the intense stress as a distraction, I could use a love of something as a distraction. I started making a grad plan, and got SO excited about spending the next couple months of my life studying photography, which brings me so much joy!! So with thinking about photography, making that plan and looking at the classes, I decided to take my sister out and take some pictures of her. I had sooooo much fun. Then I came home and started to fix them up. After looking at my final product, all day, and even some of the next day, I felt a fulfillment from doing a hobby than I have felt in a long time. Days after I felt so fulfilled. It was an amazing feeling. It was so much fun and I realized I had found what I should do with my life while I wait for our kids, and after we have kids. I have several relatives who are professional photographers and they said it is the best job ever because you can do as much or as little as you want, and each of them have 5 kids and still make enough money to buy all new furniture for their house!
So, I have decided to actively try to change my major around and pull some strings so that I can study photography. It has ALWAYS been a dream of mine to be a photographer and I am excited to pursue it and enjoy this time doing something I love. And even if I don't get the major chance, then I am still going to pursue photography as a career because luckily, I can do it without a degree.
I am so excited. I really feel that Heavenly Father has given me this idea and opportunity so that I can do something that I truly truly enjoy and increase a hobby/talent that I have as a job. So since I am doing this seriously, either as a professional photographer with a photography major or without a photography major THIS (or something very similar) is in my near future....
I AM SOOO EXCITED!!!! With this little baby, my photography career will change and it will be so much better. I really consider this an amazing tender mercy of my Heavenly Father and I am so thankful that I have been blessed with this opportunity to be something I have always wanted to be, while I wait for another thing I have always wanted to be.

O and if you are curious, here is my blog with some selected of my pictures. Check them out!