Last night I decided as I am mentally preparing myself for what I would do if this one does happen I should probably do the same for if it didn't work out. Richard helped me do that when I was pregnant with #2 telling me either I would have a baby or he would take me on another cruise (it's awesome--we have decided that with every miscarriage or every year that we don't have kids...because sometimes I am pregnant twice a year and we have school...we will go on a fun trip). So back to last night. I started imagining what I would do if it didn't work out even down to the way I would react when I found out via. ultrasound or bleeding again. Holy cow. I don't know if I am ready for that. Emotionally and physically (it's a very painful experience if you do it natural which I always do...)! I don't know if I am strong enough to do it again. But I can't put it off for too much longer because we have put off getting pregnant for the 4th time for 6 months already. Sooner or later we have to make the plunge. It's just scary and requires A LOT of faith. I have been praying and asking Heavenly Father for strength because I know already I will need him every step of the way next time. So to prepare on the positive side, I have decided to take up the planning of our next fun vacation (our last was a cruise to Mexico! Here is the link to our pictures: click here). Having this to look forward to helps so much and really made the difference last times. I highly suggest that anyone going through something like this (infertility...even though it's weird to call miscarriage infertility because we dont have a trouble getting pregnant...but whatever) should really have something to take your mind off it and look forward to. This can be different for every person, but for us fun trips is a great distraction because its a load of fun and also this is something we can't do when we have kids.
So the planning begins...this is one of the best parts of our "struggle"! :)
"We've been testing your metal... it's not always easy; it's not supposed to be! It's time when the metal is stressed almost to it's breaking point that it gains the most strength." --Unknown
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