That was my favorite session yet. Wow. I sat through the four sessions at my in-laws house and felt that every talk was answering some of my questions, giving me strength and was directed to me. It was so amazing that the speakers, prompted by the spirit, were able to touch my heart so greatly, as I am sure everyone else listening according to their questions, etc. I can't wait for the Ensign next month to come out so that I can keep it close to read it over and over again. I feel strengthened and the tender mercies of the Lord helping me realize that He is the foundation of my soul and that I cannot do ANYTHING in my life without Him. I am so thankful that I have the gospel in my life and the peace that comes only through my Savior. I want to write all the things that I loved and felt strengthened by, and I can't wait for the conference session so that I can do that. This session helped me also realize, more strongly, that He loves me. I am so grateful to my Savior and my heart swells with love for Him...
Also, today I was talking to my wonderful sister and we were talking about the things I have been going through. She asked me if it talked about children in my patriarchal blessing and I went on to tell her that it talked about my children and posterity in my blessing and how Richard's blessing talks about our children and how to raise them to be righteous (actually so does mine). Then I went on to tell her some strong promises that I have been given through priesthood blessings Richard has given me regarding our children, and yet trying to tell her I was still scared I wouldn't have children. I realized then, that many blessings I have been given had told me I would have children and I was still scared. This was not what Heavenly Father wanted, and I was not having faith and trust in him. Now I don't know when they will come and there is even a possibility that they might come through adoption (the Lord works in mysterious ways), but I should not be scared but trust in the Lord to keep all his promises. Once I realized this, I had the most wonderful feeling of peace and the fear and doubt was gone. I will trust and have faith in the Lord that he will keep his promises, and I will keep my end of the deal by trying as hard as I can to stay worthy. Once again, I am so thankful for my Savior and the peace he gives me!
"My son [daughter], peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment; And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high." D&C 121: 7-8
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